I just don’t know how or why or when. Everything I say just makes people laugh at me.
There’s like literally fucking nothing from my mind that can make them seriously listen and not treat me like some fucking clown.
Being silent is becoming more and more of an appealing choice for me. Maybe permanent silence. Like suicide.
OH BUT WHERE’S THE COMEDY IN THAT, RIGHT
[15:51] I’m sick of furries lapping up substandard games with the token furry character that gets horribly underutilized or stereotyped. I wanted something far better than that, even shit completely dedicated to the squeaky-clean aspects of furryism. They’re telling me that I should stop making a big deal out of that, and that they don’t need it or it’d just be a huge detriment to the end-product’s quality.
[15:51] And not make any profit to make back the supposed budget a game of such caliber needs.
[15:52] They’re just lapping everything up like emaciated slaves fighting over bread crumbs, and they’re fine with it? Jesus christ, maybe I really should start up a “gas all furries to death” campaign after all.
People assure me that it’s okay for me to make a mature story involving furries. Obvious skill requirements aside, the sheer number of other people who utterly laugh like hyenas at that very thought and occasionally hinting, “lol you know you just fucked up the whole grimdark srs because you put in disgusting furries right”, has made me keep thinking that, yeah, this shit’s never gonna work. But hey, I’m doing it anyway because it’s not like I’ll make even 50 cents on the fucking thing, and I don’t see anything else outside my comfort zone as anything significant. You seriously think I’d revolve my life around food packaging? Yeah right. Better to suffer the mockery of those fucking sociopaths.
[04:26] <Demon9ne> Kit: Who cares if we like it. You said yourself if even one person doesn’t (inevitable) then it’s not good. So it’s not good.
[04:27] <Demon9ne> Also why should we attach interest to your project if you didn’t finished your last project, or the previous project, or the previous project?
[04:33] <Kitetsu[Netbook]> Meh. The last time I wrote an original story, people sait it was boring as shit
[04:34] <Demon9ne> PEOPLE are cunting fucktards.
[04:34] * Demon9ne detonates
[04:35] <Demon9ne> You can’t say ANYTHING… ANYfuckingTHING… on the internet without some douche wanting to argue about it.
[04:36] <Demonsangel> don’t listen to Demon9ne
[04:36] <Demonsangel> he doesn’t know what he’s talking about
[04:36] <Kitetsu[Netbook]> I don’t know what I’m talking about either.
[04:37] <Demonsangel> You’re a worthless peice of shit who couldn’t draw if your life depended on it
[04:37] <Kitetsu[Netbook]> Yep
The BSODs just keep coming and pretty much nothing works. The only thing I can remotely do now is to just try and back up my Steam games. Failing that, it’s straight to checkup at my bro’s buddy’s place before the inevitable OS reinstall.
The thought stressed me out the first few times, but now it’s just getting tedious. I just wish this overpriced fragment of my hubris would have a fresh OS reinstall already. Even the thought of that makes me feel that that alone will go seven ways of Wrongville, because god only knows what kind of OS is going to be installed. Probably Windows ME, just to punch the hubris punishment even further.
And now, I seem to be on my way to setting my ass to rocket into some kind of Bachelor’s degree of Game Design in RMIT… And I’ll be going there with this junior little beast of a netbook instead of the gigantic penis compensation device that’s going through the aforementioned BSOD seizures. Yyyyyeah. Totally not the kind of cosmic punishment that’s tailored to school my ass about humility and discretion. There’s better ways to do that, Lord Superior Force Up Above.
Whatever. I’ll just keep walking with these burning charcoal sandals.
Ballfucking christ. I just death glared another BSOD happening to my XPS 15 minutes after writing this. KERNEL_INPAGE_DATA_ERROR BSOD again. This time I got a good look at the error code, 0x0000007a. Results suggest it’s an HDD problem.
Worst case scenario is OH BOY TIME TO DESTROY THE HDD IN PLACE OF A NEW ONE. And probably spend hours reinstalling and re-downloading everything. Pain in the ass.
Right. I think it’s official: My 15” Dell XPS laptop is fucked. Somewhere, at some point, one of the programs or games I’ve installed has caused a big enough change in the system files that it’s BSODing 0x000000f4’s like a seizure inpatient. The last two of those BSODs happened both while I was scanning using Spybot and Malwarebytes.
To make matters worse, System Restore has absolutely zilch on the list of points I can revert back to. Not even memtest came up with any RAM errors, contrary to what the KERNEL_INPAGE_DATA_ERROR BSOD message told me.
So this can mean only one or two things: Take it to a Dell tech shop for repairs, or take it to a Dell tech shop for repairs, then sell it in a pawn shop, and forget that that symbol of vanity, arrogance and false hope of mine ever existed.
Laptop just fucking crashed again… It was while I was trying to uninstall a program, Chrome was still on. Just like how I was installing a game, Chrome was also on.
Maybe I’m getting paranoid, but Chrome seems to be making the laptop go full retard. In any case, I’m going to move my essential project files not already on Dropbox into this netbook I’m using. 5GB isn’t really that much in terms of volume. Well, okay, factor in all the other things and I’m looking at probably upwards to 100+GB.
As of writing this message, I’m moving some more stuff into the external, removing unused programs, copying an entire directory of mIRC into a netbook variant, and analyzing the laptop’s disk for defrag before trying out CCleaner out of suggestion of a chatmate in mIRC. Oh yeah, moving bookmarks too. Laptop better not fucking crash again now that I’m running minimal programs as much as possible.
EDIT: Mere minutes after typing that, CRASH again. This time Chrome wasn’t involved at all, but rather it froze while I was transferring to the external HD. So I guess I’m ruling out Chrome. Starting it on Safe Mode now.